Sunday, May 20, 2012

Wyoming

I should have known Mom and I would never leave on time. When I planned to leave after Pilates, I knew the plan was a little unrealistic, but I thought it wouldn't be too long after that we got on the road. Three hours later, we were finally loading the car. Goodbye little house. You will be missed.

"We need to run by the Janke's and return their videos," Mom said. "And Katie's to drop off this extra food. And Bob's to get your paycheck."

Of course we weren't leaving town yet.

Confession: I didn't really say any goodbyes. I made a point of pretending like I was only going on a short vacation, which I am, but this vacation is a lot longer than my month in Europe last year. Plus, who knows which bear is waiting to eat me. I may never return. My point? Oh yeah, you were waiting for that, weren't you? My point is I tried not to say goodbye because I would rather say see you later, alligator. One: It sounds cooler. Two: No tears are shed. I was forced to say goodbye at work. I didn't cry until I got home and read the letters members gave me and looked at the amazing gifts they showered me with: Gift cards, $200 to Lululemon (oh, they know me so well), money, scarves, shampoo and body wash, bear spray... Maybe I should go away more often.

I was forced to say goodbye to Rolf when I dropped off the movies. "When are you taking off," he asked. "Right now," swollen, puffy eyes looked into his and tried to resist tears. "Okay, bye! See you in three months!" What? No See you later, alligator? Yeah, I never actually used those words on anyone.

Those were the only people I said goodbye to. Other than that, I just texted people as I was leaving the town border. Goodbye, Sophia! Goodbye, Mavel! Goodbye, Doug! Goodbye, Sarah! Etc, etc, etc.

But it wasn't actually time to leave town yet. Nope, Mom and I needed coffee. Handlebar? Oh yeah! So, I had to say goodbye to Kim and Aaron, too. "I put some good mojo in your coffee, Ashlee," Kim told me. "We'll miss you. Have a safe trip and a wonderful time in Wyoming. Come back soon." Oh Kim, you are too cute for words.

Back in the car. Time to leave town? Nope! Time for REI. Then Backyard Bowls. Now time to go? Yes, time to hit the... oh wait! I forgot my winter coat! Gotta go back to the house. Grumble, grumble, grumble.

Hi House.  I thought you were leaving. I was, I forgot my jacket. Oh, that was dumb. Yeah, it was. Maybe you shouldn't go to Wyoming. Maybe you are right. Okay, I'll stay. No, you need to go. But I want to stay. But you made commitments. Dumb commitments. Should have thought about this two weeks ago when you said yes. Dumb me. Yup. Okay, see ya, House.

Time to drive. Traffic? Traffic. All through town. Nonstop. At least it gave me more time to look at the ocean.

Next stop? Surprise visit to Kristina!!! That was the best surprise I could have asked for!


While we drove, Dana texted me facts I needed to know about Wyoming. I thought I would share.


1. Wyoming is the least populated state
2. Wyoming is the tenth largest state
3. It is nicknamed "The Cowboy State". Good thing I like country music.


4. I will be in the mountain time zone
5. Wyoming's borders are defined by longitude and latitude, not natural landmarks. It is one of three states that is defined this way.
6. The guy she is dating smells like spaghetti (that has nothing to do with Wyoming, but it cracks me up and needs to be shared publicly. Sorry, Day)
7. Yellowstone was the world's first national park and became a national park on Dana's birthday! Ah! It's meant to be!
8. Their state motto is "equal rights" and it was the first state to let women vote. Too bad I'm not registered. (Did I just admit that to everyone everywhere? Yup.)
9. The state dinosaur is the triceratops. Suh-weet!


10. Jackson Pollack is from Wyoming. Dude, awesome!


11. The state sport is rodeo. Who would have guessed?
12. They have a lot of bears there. Yogi bear is one of them. Roger and Dana both told me to stay away from Pic-a-nic baskets. Haha. Clever. "Yogi" by the Ivy Three (1960), sung in a voice mimicking Yogi bear, reached number 8 on the Billboard Hot 100. Hmmm... Are they crazy? Let's find out...



Please watch the following link, you will not regret it:

http://youtu.be/YCnMs_-GcNM

Okay, so maybe you regretted it.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Who Let The Dogs Out

I can't believe Thursday is already here. Only two more days and I'm on my way to Wyoming, or as Matt likes to say, WHY-oming?

I really want this necklace. So perfect for me!
This week has been filled with good food, great company, packing and, of course, some awesome workouts!  I've been riding my bike around a lot, testing out my beautiful new wheels and getting some mileage in for "Cycle MAYnia" week. That's been fun. Okay, I have to admit, my wheels don't make me that much faster, but sometimes I like to pretend they do so I can feel like my money spent was worth it. It probably was not a good decision to buy them, but the boys just made it sound like such a great deal, something I would be a fool to pass up. I swear, money just likes to fly out of my bank account.

On Tuesday, I rode my bike to work to teach one final circuit class. Right before class began, Sabina gave me one of her "Lucy-you've-got-some-'splaining-to-do" looks. "So, Ashlee," she said in an accusing tone. "I hear you are leaving us." Uh-oh. I've been caught. I sort of brushed it off and called over my shoulder as I continued to set-up for class, "Oh, just for three months. I'll be back." I figured if I didn't allow the thought of leaving to set in, I wouldn't have to worry about it. "Where are you going," she asked. "Oh, just to Wyoming," I shrugged it off again. "Okay," Sabina said under her breath. "This isn't working." She walked over to me to demand my attention. "Why are you leaving?" Tears filled her eyes as she told me how much she was going to miss me. C'mon, Sabina, don't make me cry... I tried to keep conversation short and concise so I wouldn't have to think about it. After class ended, all of the members lined up so I could give them the URL for my blog (hey ladies!). One of the women told me she has lost 50 pounds since she started my class and began swimming a couple of months ago. I was so proud of her and excited to see how much her workout improves while I'm away! I just love my entire class and am going to miss them so much. I could tell this was going to be a long week of goodbyes.

After work, I rode my bike up to the Battle's house for homegroup. It was a small gathering that evening, but it was so good to see everyone. I told them all about Wildflower and my trip and what I would be doing. They prayed over me and it was amazing to hear the kind words they had to say. Even though I've only known these people for a few months, they have so much love for me and so much excitement for my life. I didn't want to say goodbye. I walked out to my bike, holding back the tears.

Wednesday morning was my final 6AM cycle class. I brought the dogs to class. My class loved it! They had never experienced the barking dogs mix Rich made for me and they worked hard getting away from those dogs. Every time they heard a dog bark, they had to pick it up to zone 5, even during recovery. It's a hard class! I burned over 600 calories doing it.

5:00 Warm-up
5:00 extended warm-up
1:00 zone 2, 1:00 zone 3, :30 zone 4 (x2)
5:00 zone 4, 1:00 zone 1
4:00 zone 4, 1:00 zone 1
3:00 zone 4, 1:00 zone 1
2:00 zone 4, 1:00 zone 1
1:00 zone 4, 2:00 zone 1
1:00 zone 4 standing, 1:00 zone 1 standing (x4)
:20 zone 2, :20 zone 3, :20 zone 4 (x6)
1:00 zone 2, 1:00 zone 3, :30 zone 4 (x2)
5:00 Cool-down

Jameisha and I had our Wednesday morning coffee after class, then I went to teach my last aerobics class for active older adults. I didn't tell them it was my last class though. I really didn't want to have to say goodbye to that class because, to be honest, that could be my last goodbye. When working at retirement centers, you never know when your final goodbye will be.

I dropped by SB Running to say goodbye to Nash and Nick, then picked up my SB Tri Club kit from next door. Woohoo! New smart wool socks, tri suit and jersey! Afterwards, Mom, Sarah and I had Los Agaves for lunch then Mom helped me clean my apartment. When I say "helped" me clean, I mean she cleaned my apartment. My mom is so good to me and I am so bad at cleaning. It was amazing how beautiful the place looked by the end of the day.



Two of my favorite people

That evening, I taught more classes and said even more goodbyes. Sarah brought me a note, sweet peas and a gift card for Los Agaves. She told me that her husband said I bring a positive aura to the gym and I make working out fun, not a chore. Those words really touched me. Then Loric told me that Kim refuses to go to Pilates unless I am teaching it. Kelly won't be at Pilates on Saturday because her son is graduating in San Diego. I am so bummed that she won't be there for my final class. She has been a die-hard since day one. I made my evening cycle class do the same workout I had my morning cycle class do. Jason was drenched in sweat. Head-to-toe. He may have cussed out my dogs. But, hey, he burned almost 1,000 calories, so I'm okay with it.

After cycle, I drove over to my other job and taught my last Pure Awesomeness class. We did sprints, weights, abs, and glutes. When I do glutes, I do glutes. Oh, the boys were so unhappy with me. After announcing that there would be no water break and we were going to repeat the glute set, Austin said, "I'd rather do 200 burpees like we used to do." Challenge accepted. "Alright," I announced. "If you would like to do 200 burpees instead of the glute set, you are welcome to do so!" To my surprise, Austin stood up and started doing burpees. Doug soon joined in. Are you kidding me? You would really rather do burpees? Well, after the way Austin made me sweat on Tuesday, I figured I could give him a little perspiration. Holler!

When I got home, my mom had locked herself out of my house and had been waiting outside for two hours. See? I'm not the only one who locks herself out! Must be genetic! I made her watch Unbreakable with me so she could see what inspired me to run an ultra. If you haven't seen it, please, please, pretty please watch it! You won't regret it!


Scofield has been extra cuddly lately. And she is soOOOOooooOOOO cute! Whenever I start walking, she will follow me and try to hug herself around my foot to try to get me from leaving. She actually hopped in my box while I was packing. She wants to go with me, but there will be no bears eating my Scoffie this summer!


Trying to pack herself in my things

This morning's classes were all right on the money. Great classes, fun people, wonderful comments from members... I'm really going to miss everyone so much. I feel like I made a huge mistake choosing to leave and go to Wyoming. I just hope this is a great experience!

My mom came to my 12:15 cycle class today. Okay, side note: My mom does not sweat. She never has. She overheats, but she does not sweat. Not even Rich-the-Powerhouse (my inspiration) can make her sweat. Today, using my barking dogs CD, I made her sweat. Yup. She came up after class and pointed to her shirt. No way! Woohoo! I am a monster! I make the impossible happen!

Richard suggested I creat a workout tape like Suzanne Somers or Jillian Michaels have. I really like that idea, but I don't know if it would sell. I think I'll have to make a name for myself first. Last night, I got a text from Josh telling me I train too hard. "Yeah, I know," was my response. "And my body hurts really badly, but people love me for it!" His response? "Is it worth not being able to walk in a couple of years?" Okay, Dad. Yeah, I think my dad has said the exact same words, but I really want to make that name for myself. You don't get famous for placing 1,018 or whatever in a triathlon. Someday, my name will be known in multiple states, not just Oregon and California. Haha. I wonder if they'll know me in Wyoming by the time I leave. Oh man... I think I have a problem. Time for a 19-hour drive to get my mind off training! Except I'm taking four books about triathlon, one about running and one about cycling with me. Eh... I'll find other interests someday.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

My Week As a Mortal

Over a week has passed since I completed Wildflower. And what a week it has been!

Three days passed before I even thought about working out again.

Recovery Day 1:

Take an early train down to San Diego to meet my parents. Eat a huge Mexican feast with my parents and Jack Coleman. Hang out with Annie, Trace Ann, Cole and Jack. Coffee at BirdRock. Hair cut with Ronnie. Fish tacos at Rubios and frozen yogurt at Froglanders. Reading until 2:20AM.





Roses from my parents for Wildflower



Froglanders

Recovery Day 2:

Breakfast at the Cottage. Hair appointment at Dearinger. Coffee at BirdRock. Lunch with Annie. Shopping with Mom. Dinner at the Shores with Mer and Poppa. Dana time!





Oh man, Dana and I went out to Ocean Beach because Ronnie insisted that we celebrate Taco Tuesday at his favorite bar. We got there at 9:36PM, 24 minutes before reverse happy hour. Instead of going straight into the restaurant, we walked next door and ate waffle ice cream sandwiches... uhm wow. So good. After polishing off the sugar, we walked over to the restaurant and ordered a couple of beers. Of course, it wasn't long before some guys came over and took over our table with their oysters. "I'm allergic," Dana told them. One guy tried to spoon feed me an oyster. "I'm full," I told him. Dumb boys. They referred to each other by their last names. And tried to get us to dance with them. Dumb, dUmB boys. They talked while I texted and Dana looked bored. Dana and I talked and tried to ignore them. They just did not get the picture. An hour into the night, they finally asked our names. "I'm Natalie," I told the dumb boys. Dana's turn to come up with a clever name came. "I'm Ashlee," she said. Yes, Dana, that was so very clever.

Recovery Day 3:

Coffee at BirdRock. Say goodbye to Annie. Long train ride home. Pure Awesomeness class.

Oh, Pure Awesomeness. That was a no-good, dirty-rotten class. I didn't feel like I was pushing them hard, but it was my first workout in three days and I hadn't had much to drink that day. I got out there to teach and towards the end of class, I just couldn't take it anymore. My head was spinning. I was ready to pass out. In the middle of row presses, I stopped to regain my composure. "You okay," Sarah asked. Let's pray to God it was just the humidity and I'm not a whimp.

Thursday, I got straight back into the normal work and workout routine. Biking, running, swimming. It was all there. Friday, same thing. Saturday? Swim with Christina and her brother. Sunday? Trail run with the ladies, work then running Old San Marcos with Richard.


Awww trail run. My last one for three months. Mother's day. I love that I always run the same trail on holidays. "Happy New Year!" "Happy Easter!" Mother's day is a little different though. I didn't want to say the words to anyone because what if she wasn't a mother? What if she had tried her whole life and never had that child? I couldn't do it. So I just smiled and looked down. Anyway, great run! I learn so much when I run with these women. Anne, Juliana and Katrina. I love them so much. They show me what it means to be a mother and an athlete. Sure, it's maybe not what I had always imagined, but they remind me that it is possible to still be active and have your own workout even when you have to worry about the kids. They are strong, confident women who work hard and play harder. They inspire me.

Cycle class was brutal. I was really mean. I made them do a lot of zone 5. Most of them stopped doing the workout halfway through. Circuit class went well, too. Audrey and Mike were there. They are hysterical!

After class, Richard and I met up at the bottom of Old San Marcos. Eight minutes run, two minutes recovery, all the way to the top. Run all the way to the bottom.

I taught another cycle class later then my parents arrived for Mother's Day Mexican dinner.

Monday was back to hardcore cycling ALL DAY LONG. Love it. Love it so much, in fact, that I went out to see Dave later and get new wheels. Well, I originally went to buy aero bars, but I was convinced to buy new wheels. They are wonderful! Over a pound lighter! But expensive. Aw man... how does my money just fly through my fingers so smoothly? Hello dollar bills. Good buy, hundred dollar bills....

But the day was not all money-spending. I also spent a lot of time with my wonderful parents. We had my favorite coffee from Kim and Aaron at Handlebar then I finished my painting.





This morning, I decided to work out at Killer B. Halfway into the workout, sweat was literally dripping off of my nose. "Wow," Barbara commented. "Ashlee is mortal." As if she didn't know...

Okay, my week and a half of recovery is over. I've been eating horribly and not working out too hard. Time to change things up... After all, Barbara told me: "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels".


Thursday, May 10, 2012

Avia Wildflower 2012 (AKA Weekend of Waiting)

Blood. Sweat. Tears. Hammer Gel. All of this and more was included in my Avia Wildflower Olympic Triathlon. Saturday morning, I drove up to San Lois Obispo by myself and waited for Sloan to return from working the medical tent at the long and sprint courses. I promised him a ride, but it meant me sitting in Starbucks for six hours just waiting, wishing I was up at the campground getting my pre-race workout in. After not hearing from him, I decided it was more important for me to go set up at Wildflower, so I got in my car and headed north. I got halfway to the race site when Sloan called and said he was home. I drove back to pick him up, but he wasn't there; turns out he was still at Wildflower but needed a ride back up there later.

Instead of sitting around, grumpy and sick, I took out my bike and went for a 50-minute ride around the neighborhood. As soon as I finished, Sloan called to say he was really at his house now, so I rode back. When I arrived, he wanted to make dinner, so I went on a twenty-minute run while I waited. We loaded up the car and got to the campgrounds after the sun had set. So much for scouting out the course and getting into the water to practice the swim.

At that point, all I wanted was to find Josh and settle in. I knew once I found him, everything would be better and I wouldn't be as stressed.

I found the area Josh said he and Luis would be camping, but it was too dark to really see anyone or anything. Inside, I was panicking. What would I do if I didn't find Josh? I was exhausted. I didn't have a tent; would I have to sleep in my car? Sloan and I got out of the car and started walking when suddenly from behind me, I heard a far-away voice calling my name. Relief, security, happiness and contentment settled through my body. "Joshua," I exclaimed in a voice of sheer delight. I can't even describe the feeling Josh brings me. When I'm with him, it's like I'm home in Sisters, only better. There is no better feeling then knowing Josh is near. He makes it seem like nothing in the world matters and everything will be okay.

I climbed back in the car and followed Josh to the campsite, but my journey wasn't quite finished. Sloan informed me he needed a ride to his friend's campsite, so I got back into the car and drove around the entire lake looking for his friend Mike. I was so done. My gas was on empty and the nearest gas station was thirty minutes away. I had not eaten dinner. To put it lightly, I was a crank-a-meister. After driving around for half an hour, we discovered we had gone the wrong way, so we turned around and drove back the direction we came. It was after 10 o'clock at this point.

After finally returning to the tent, I found Josh and Luis sitting in chairs, chatting and catching scenes from Soul Surfer, which a group was watching on a big screen down the hill. After awhile, we got in our tents and attempted to sleep. We tried hard, but several things prevented us from actually sleeping: 1) The sprint and long-course triathletes were up all night partying since they had already finished their races, 2) the night kept getting colder, 3) Josh didn't have an air mattress, 4) I was laying on my right side so I wouldn't be awkwardly staring towards Josh all night, etc. I kept checking my clock, wondering how long it would be until sleep crept upon me. Every once in awhile, Josh would ask if I was still cold. He gave me his beenie, but that didn't help too much. At 4:30AM, I heard Josh rustle. All of a sudden, I felt his arm and leg wrap around me to help keep me warm. Neither of us said anything. I didn't want to move because I didn't want him to stop holding me; his body warmth was keeping me cozy. I knew he didn't mean anything by it, he just wanted to keep me warm, but I wanted to cherish the next hour and a half in his arms because I knew it was the last time it would happen.

Six AM came too quickly. "Hey Joe! How'd you sleep," yelled the man standing right outside of our tent. The traffic director also stood there and we were able to hear every word of his walkie-talkie, even with the ear plugs Richard gave me. My alarm went off. Time to rise and shine.

As Josh and Luis talked about the temperature of their coffee, I took my time thinking about the events that were about to unfold. I got dressed, made my oatmeal with bananas, nuts and agave and packed up. The traffic director asked me to move my car, so I did, but I didn't tell Josh or Luis. When I got back, they were gone.

My wave didn't start until 10:15AM, so I hung out in my car for a bit, listening to music and pumping my bike tires. The course starts at the bottom of a gnarly hill, so I made sure I had everything I would need for the race so I wouldn't have to return to the car. I carried my bike through the dirt so the tires wouldn't get punctured and made my way to the registration tent.

When I arrived at the transition area, I set up all of my belongings, then I waited... for three hours. I looked for Timmy, Sloan and Josh, but there were so many people, it was impossible to find them. There was a tent selling Peet's coffee and I sincerely considered climbing up the hill to the car to go get my money. Instead, I drank three bottles of water, warmed up briefly and ate a banana. When I returned to my bike, two girls were setting up their bikes next to mine. We all started exchanging small talk and conversing about what we did to train. As I talked with them, I started feeling a lot more confident about the goals I had set. As my competition Amanda and Leslie talked about their training and previous competitions, I knew I would beat them both. While at Starbucks the day prior, I read through my old blogs and there was one where Josh said, "You're above the average, Ash." At that moment, I knew it was true. My hard work was going to pay off today.

After layering on sunscreen and body glide all over my body, I convinced Leslie to walk down to the swim start with me. We watched the men as they transitioned from the water to the ride. Twenty minutes later, it was time to begin.

Several other white-capped girls and I dove into the water to warm-up before our heat. We climbed back out and lined up. the countdown began and off we went. there were limbs everywhere! Every time my hand reached forward, I found myself grabbing onto some girl's thigh. "Sorry's" were yelled out all around me, but I saved my breath, knowing there would be a lot more kicking later on.

Amazingly, I found that I wasn't at the end of the competition. I was somewhere in the middle and I felt strong. "I could actually win this," I thought. "Well, maybe not win, but I could maybe place!!" Then I realized I was letting my head run away with me. "Alright, Ash, don't get too far ahead of yourself. Stay in the moment." Soon, I discovered I could even pick up my pace; unfortunately, I could not stay on a straight path. I swam left, I swerved right. There was no straightness to my stroke. When swimming in open water, I'm like a child who cannot color in between the lines.

Worship music filled my head. Then I tried to change it up by singing Fake It by Seether. Just as I started getting tired, the kayaker directing the swimmers told me it was time to turn in for the last 100 yards of the swim. I swerved back and forth all the way to the water's edge. As others walked out of the water, I jogged out until I met my transition area. I was completely dehydrated and disoriented. Knowing I wouldn't be able to stay upright on my bike, I stopped and took a second to drink half of one of my four water bottles. I realized somewhere in my confusion, I had lost my goggles from Josh and my Avia Wildflower swim cap, but I couldn't waste time to go back for them. Amanda's bike was gone, but Leslie's was still on the rack. I had no time to waste. I chugged some more water and slid my bike from its post. Knowing I needed some sort of carbohydrate, I tucked a couple of Hammer Gels in my pockets, but didn't want to stop and refuel pre-bike ride like I should have. As I neared the spot where I could get on my bike, someone cheered me on. His friend yelled, "Don't forget your sunglasses!"

Transition area

"Oh, thanks!" I exclaimed, grabbing them from the top of my helmet and clumsily jumping on the bike to face Lynch Hill. Shoot! I forgot my race number, but there was no turning around. Slowly but surely I climbed Lynch Hill, passing several men and women, but barely ever being passed. Halfway up, I realized I had not paced myself and had given too much effort too early. My breathing became hard and rapid, like a morbidly obese man trying to walk up a set of stairs because the elevator was broken. The only thing that kept me from giving up entirely was the thought of my 12:15 cycle class and how they would be disappointed in me if I didn't climb this hill.

Once I hit the top of the hill, I grabbed some water filled with Cytomax out of my bottle; it was refreshing. As I got down low to stay aerodynamic, I watched the oncoming male cyclists come toward me and tried to pick Josh's face out of the crowd. There he was, scaling up the hill, a huge smile plastered on his face. He was riding with the elite and collegiate cyclists. "Dang, what a stud," I thought to myself. "Wait, did he get aerobars?! I can't believe he's already finishing the bike. What a champ."

I passed Amanda on the next hill. Secretly, I was patting myself on the back. One more down, who knows how many to go. We started uphill again and my legs were getting weak. These two college boys were cheering people on at the top. "Just think," one yelled. "You'll be going downhill next time you pass us!" I smiled at him with the biggest grin I could muster. Then I passed a heavy woman clad in lime green from San Francisco. Every time the path rolled downhill though, she would fly past me again, only to be passed as soon as the road levelled out. We got to the turn around and I passed her for the last time.

my bike and race number
As I looked forward at the false flat, I realized I could ride harder, so I picked it up a notch. I also realized I could make this race a better experience for everyone. This may be a competition, but some people were experiencing their first triathlon and needed some encouragement. "On your left," I would cry out, following it with encouraging phrases, such as, "Stay strong" and "You got it".

The road made a sharp descent and my bike glided down the path. Wind pushed against me and I saw a spider dangling from my handlebars, only connected by his web. I tried to swat him off, but nothing worked, he stayed clinging for dear life. As the hill got steeper, my bike went faster and I just prayed he would eventually be blown off. Deciding to ignore him, I finished the hill in time for the hill to make a sharp increase. I felt pretty good climbing up the hill and I was passing some strong women. Nine-tenths of the way up, the spider appeared on my leg, right beneath the hem of my Zoot suit. I tried swatting it, but got so preoccupied that when I looked up, I found myself dangerously close to the edge of the road. It was too late to correct my wheel and my bike went down in the dirt and rocks.

"Are you okay," one woman cried.

Another asked how my leg was.  "There's not too much blood," she reassured me. Blood. I didn't even think about the fact that I may have been injured. She was right though; the bleeding wasn't too bad and my leg didn't hurt. I picked myself up and walked my bike up the rest of the hill, making friendly talk with one of the gentlemen climbing up. Once at the top, I hopped on and pedalled hard to make up for lost time.

I came upon the downhill section that takes the cyclists back towards the lake where the boys had cheered me on earlier. They were right, before I had been climbing, now it was time for a leg break. Every time I went downhill, I rested my legs, refusing to waste energy pedaling when it wouldn't do much to speed me up. It seemed like the course went on forever, but we finally made it back to Lynch and I bunkered down low to rest on my way downhill. I came into the transition area quickly, clips already unattached.

As I tried to get to my transition spot, several athletes got in my way. Some strolled side-by-side, talking and taking up space. Others stopped dead in their tracks in front of me, looking for their numbers. I had sighted out my spot, lining it up with an RV, so I knew where to go and these people were trying my patience while I tried to maneuver around them to get there.

I knew the Yankz on my Brooks PureCadence were laced to tightly, so I grabbed their original laces and shoved them in the hip pocket of my Zoot suit, should I need them. I ate a quarter of a protein bar and downed a water bottle. Exchanging my helmet for my hat, I slung on my racing belt and took one last look around to make certain I had everything I needed. Grabbing one more cup of water at the aid station, I crossed the line that marked the run start and took the stairs by the water's edge two at a time. "How does she look so strong," one onlooker questioned.

It wasn't long before I was passing every person I saw. I continued to yell out words of encouragement. "Keep going," I urged one walking man with the words "Joy and Happiness" written on the back of his shirt.

"Oh, honey," he said in a very feminine black woman sort of way. He had some attitude! "I'll keep on strutting my cat walk all the way to the finish line."

I laughed and kept running. The roads got steeper. I passed a sign that read 3. Three miles in 18 minutes? That can't be right! I'm not going that quickly! It wasn't until I hit the sign reading 4 that I realized it was refering to kilometers. Aw man!

My feet were completely numb due to the fact that the shoes were cutting off all circulation of the blood. Maybe I should stop and switch laces. That would take too long. I didn't want to get passed. What if the people whom I had just finished motivating laughed at me? What if Amanda and/or Leslie passed me?

The hill just continued to get steeper and never seemed to smooth out. My feet were completely drained of blood. I decided to walk to try to regain feeling in my toes. It didn't help, so before the 5th kilometer, I stopped to loosen my laces.

"Are you okay?" a cute, athletic woman asked as she ran past. "Yeah, my Yankz are just too tight," I responded. "Oh I hate that," she replied. "Well, I'm glad it's just that and not your foot."

I took off my shoes and started running barefoot, only able to continue because of the signs posted with inspirational Bible verses, like Philipians 4:13: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". I let God be my strength, but I still had to alternate between walking and running. Once the road changed to dirt, I had to put my shoes back on. Ahh! Time was ticking! The feeling in my feet still wasn't completely restored.

For a little while, I ran. A snake striped like a zebra slithered six feet in front of me. Not knowing what kind it was or if it was poisonous, I decided to stop and wait for it to pass. I couldn't get my running legs back. A boy came toward me with a post in his hands and a sign that read "No Stopping". "C'mon," he demanded. "Get those bright shoes moving! Read the sign! No stopping!" I thanked him as I began trotting forward.

As I neared Lynch Hill, I picked up speed and took the beatings as I rolled downhill. When I reached the final stretch of the race, I picked up speed and passed the finish line with my hands held high. A 3:24 flashed on the clock. A medal was placed around my neck, my timing chip was removed and the only thing on my mind was water, finding Sloan and wheter or not Josh had seen me finish.

Josh finished with a 2:27.31, 52nd place overall.

Timmy finished with a 2:56.53, 140th place overall.

Ashlee (that's me!) finished with 3:24.29, 1041st place overall.

Sloan finished with a 3:26.25, 1082nd place overall.

Leslie finished with a 3:54:42, 1511th place overall.

Amanda finished with a 4:02.23, 1591st place overall.

Over 8,000 competed in our race alone. I beat over 7,000 people. That's actually kind of cool. Josh beat like everyone. He's amazing.

Now it's time to train for the Santa Barbara Triathlon!


Saturday, May 5, 2012

The Final Countdown

Patiently I wait for Sloan at Starbucks. I sit here drinking my unsweetened passion fruit tea and venti iced water, trying to stay hydrated, but this heat and my influenza have really taken it out of me. Water, water... I need more water. Like a camel in a desert, minus the extra hump for liquid storage. Water, water. Need more water. I almost hope it rains tomorrow, but that would just be miserable. I pray it's a little chilly though. No wind. I don't need a breeze to keep me moving, only if it's at my back, helping me climb those darn hills.


Driving up to SLO this morning, I reflected on the past six months of training and some of my favorite memories. There were Friday nights with Josh and Sophia indoor cycling and trying to keep my balance as Josh playfully pushed on my shoulder. Haha. We competed to see who could get the highest wattage. Now that I look back, none of us did that well, though we were all impressed with Josh's 400-something. That was back then; now it's probably double that amount. That man is strong. We rode hard. Sophia left first. Then Josh wanted to quit, but I made him keep going. Finally, he refused to continue. Seeing as he was my ride, I was forced to finish early. We put all those calories burned plus some back in our bodies when we decided on Panda Express for dinner, his treat. Followed by raspberry sorbet and half a movie? Oh man, dating Josh was not the healthiest time of my life, but I loved every minute of it.


I remember driving up to the lake to practice the bike course with Sloan. He taught me so much, like how to climb a hill correctly, when to stay in the big chainring, etc. We laughed about animals trying to commit suicide, refueled with breakfast burritos, talked about relationships and life decisions. It was one of the most difficult, but best rides of my life. It was on that ride that I questioned whether to continue competing in triathlons or to take a break. Honestly, I don't think I will ever take a break.


Overtraining. I remember doing that quite often. Best time was a Saturday after work when I was supposed to run, but found myself with James, Christine and Dani, competing in a mini-tri. We swam in the frigid March ocean waters, rode hard in the sun and ran past the lagoon. It was the first time I ever worked out with Christine and I'm sad I didn't do it earlier. Her mom and James kept telling me I needed to contact her to train, but she intimidated me so much. Here she was, this great athlete; how was I going to keep up? Now we've trained together a few times and I can't think of anyone who challenges me yet works at the same level as I do the way she does. I can't wait to get back from Wyoming and get back to training with her.


Of course, I cannot forget the half marathon last February with Weston and Sophia. That was one of the best moments of my life. We ran hard and we all succeeded with a new PR. All of our training and commitment paid off. I was so proud of my friends and so proud of myself for our accomplishments. My family was there to cheer us on. It was top 5 of the best memories of my life. Great people, supportive family, fun competition, amazing encouragement... I really have had an amazing training season.


As you know, I'm ill and my body is exhausted and I'm not very optimistic about tomorrow's race; however, Weston was right when he said the past six months have not been a waste. I have motivated people that I don't even know, my family and friends have gotten more active because of me (Dana even went to the gym... once), I have created a name for myself in the triathlon world of my town, I've discovered new passions, etc.

Last Thursday at work, I had my class hanging from the TRX and pulling their knees into their chests. "But it hurts my hands," moaned Barbara. "I'm getting calluses!"


"Awesome," I replied energetically. "Keep doing it and you'll build them up so it won't hurt anymore."


"I knew you would say that," she replied, shaking her head. I love that she knows I'm tough!


Later that day, Bente introduced me to the new membership director. She was telling the woman about what I do with my life. "Ashlee is crazy," Bente said matter-of-factly. I laughed. "No, I'm serious," she said.


"I'm planning on doing a hundred mile run next year," I told the new girl.


"No," Bente said. "She's crazier than that.


I didn't even realize Bente knew I was insane. That brightened my day.


I look at people like Alvinn, who works out approximately five hours a day and eats barely anything. Or Drea, who runs a 5:15 mile. I'm not crazy. Those people are crazy. Someday, I  hope to be that crazy.


For now, I'll just keep training. Tomorrow, I will do what I can. I will push hard and pace well. I won't overdo it, but I will still compete with myself. After all, I am there to set my own PR, not win first place. Jason made me write down my goal times. Then he took time off of every goal I set and texted them to me. "If you don't beat these times," he informed me. "You owe me dinner before you leave." Hopefully he doesn't want one as fancy as the places he took me. 


Before driving north, I made a new playlist for my race tomorrow. I decided I really hate Brittney Spears and was only using her because Summer suggested it. I don't enjoy LMFAO either. Sexy and I Know It just helped me through the hills last time I rode the course. As much as I love Local Native's Sun Hands, it's better for trail running on a lazy Sunday morning, not while trying to pummel the competition. So... here is my new playlist. These are songs that push me to go harder. swim.bike.run.harder... right?


1. Kick in the Teeth- Papa Roach
2. You're Gonna Go Far Kid- The Offspring
3. Dark Horses- Switchfoot
4. Help Is On The Way- Rise Against
5. Make Me Wanna Die- The Pretty Reckless
6. Rope- Foo Fighters
7. Fake It- Seether
8. Heart in A Cage- The Strokes
9. Suck My Kiss- Red Hot Chili Peppers
10. A Matter of Time- Foo Fighters










Thursday, May 3, 2012

Right to Pass Reh-Vo-Kay-Ble

My friend is a little blue today, so I thought I would cheer her up.

Sophia, this one's for you:

With only two weeks left in California, I convinced Sophia to take a day trip with me. After work last Saturday, we drove up to East Camino Cielo in search of Knapp's Castle. After researching, we discovered that it was closed for the season, so we tried to find another hike. An awesome thing happened though! We randomly drove past a trail and decided to try it out.

We got out of the car and tried to spray ourselves with my sunscreen... uhmmm spray on sunscreen in the wind? Not a good idea... I'm pretty certain none of it got onto our bodies. While Sophia sprayed, I stood behind her, hoping some of the excess would plaster itself onto my ivory body instead of fluttering away with the breeze. I was EH-xtra white and decided to wear only a sports bra (and shorts and shoes, of course) for our hike. Up we climbed.

We passed something that looked like Knapp's Castle, but it wasn't marked off, so we decided to go up and explore. Only one thing stood in our way, but Sophia couldn't quite read it to let it stop her. "Path Rev-oh-kay-ble? Reh-vo-kay-ble?" "Revocable." Sure enough, we were there! Well, if Sophia the teacher couldn't read it, I wasn't going to let it stand in between Knapp's Castle and us!

Reh-vo-kay-ble?

We made our way through the remains of Knapp's Castle, which I've been wanting to do for a very long time, then hiked for an hour down this long hill, only to have to hike back up.

Start of the trail, wondering where it will lead
Lake Cachuma



So white you can't even see my middle
It's a ghost!
 






After the hike, we drove into Solvang and got coffee and books. Yay for pretty places like Solvang.

Little known fact: I collect old Nancy Drew books.


Coffee, book on running, quirky telephone book... my kind of wonderful


When I returned from Solvang, Sophia, Evan and I met up for an evening walk on the beach.

Evan is so awesome he can create fire...
I know this blog is simple and not very exciting, but it was one of the best days I've ever had in Santa Barbara. Thank you for the memories, Sophia. I hope your day gets sunshiny wonderful!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Sickidy Ickidy

In the past six months, every book I've read on training for a triathlon has told me that to be a serious athlete, you have to give up everything for your training: Family, friends, holidays, junk food, relaxation, vacation... everything. So I did.

How many Friday nights did I spend working on my form in the swimming pool? Almost every one of them.

What did I do on Christmas eve? Ran for an hour and a half.

Christmas morning? Went on a bike ride.

How many times did I arrive late to church because I just had to get that bike ride in or I lost track of time while swimming in the ocean? At least a handful... maybe more.

How many relationships did I sever for my training? How many plans did I bail on because I needed an extra hour to run? I don't even want to think about it.

This Sunday is my grandparents' 60th wedding anniversary and what am I doing to celebrate? Competing in a triathlon.

And what has it gotten me? Nothing. Sure, I swim a little bit faster, bike a little stronger and run a little harder, but triathlon has been my existence for six months now. Six months, people. And I shouldn't complain, because I've loved every minute of it. There were times I didn't want to train, but I loved being a triathlete. I loved that people recognized me as an athlete.

Last night I went to bed feeling a little ill. This morning, I slept until 9AM. Yes, 9AM. I woke up miserable. I couldn't move. My body ached. My nose was stuffed. The headache started in my temples and found its way throughout my entire body. My throat was beyond scratchy. I couldn't even find the strength to get out of bed and feed myself. I laid there the entire day. What a waste of one of my last 17 days in California.

Honestly, I blame Derek. He told me I should "get sick" so I could come visit him in Bakersfield before I move. Yup, Derek, you suck.

Honestly, though, I have no one to blame but myself. I think I idolized training for Wildflower. I worshipped the god of triathlon. It became my priority and I put all other things aside. I think I've learned my lesson. Ugh. But really, God? Did you have to teach me in this way?